Systemic Longing

Allow me to share with you a birthday tradition of mine.  Every year since I turned 14, I manage to find myself alone as the clock strikes midnight. At 11:59 PM, the minute before I’m about to turn the page on my 104 page life, I try to think of a short title that encompasses the passing year.

This year was “The Grass is Always Greener”, and how true it is for so many of us.

If we work full time, we think… “There’s so much I want to learn in school.”

If we’re in school, we think… “God, I just want to earn some money and accomplish something real.”

If we’re single, we think… “If I met someone, that would just complete me.”

If we’re married, we think… “I can’t sleep cuz it’s so damn hot in this bed.”

If we’re poor, we think… “I wish I had more money.”

If we’re rich, we think… “Maybe it IS easier for a camel to fit through the eye of a needle.”

We’re bred this way and there’s no denying it.  We want what we can’t have and in the end we’re just children, after all.

What if instead we think…

If I’m working… “I have free nights.”

If I’m in school… “I’m in the lowest possible tax bracket!”

If I’m single… “I’m going to dance with complete strangers.”

If I’m married… “I count myself the lucky few to have found love.”

If I’m poor… “Money has no power over me.”

If I’m rich…. “I’ll enjoy the finer things in life.”

Because really,

Yesterday is History, Tomorrow a Mystery, Today is a Gift, That’s why it’s called the Present –Master Uguay (Kung Fu Panda)

tick tick tick tick…

I’m 26.  (Westside time).

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  1. gina choi

    happy birthday my friend.
    i hope this year is better than all your former years combined. 🙂

  2. CloVe

    OMG! I JUST quoted KungFu Panda like 5 minutes ago. HAHAHHAHAHHAHA. So deep.

    Happy Birthday, Chris.

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